It strikes me, often in the morning just after waking. It's the thought that what I'm doing is a waste of time. It feels great when I get feedback and people thank me for sharing my life with them and they make it feel worthwhile and they make it feel like something, but I'm making no money.
Why does something feel like nothing until we're making money at it? Is that the case?
I'm not saving. I'm not building a nest egg and I AM American and this is NOT the American way to live. I live from day to day, just like other people I guess. I'm making connections and I'm paying it forward in deeds, so I know that I will not be truly destitute and without any kind of shelter because I'm skilled and I'm doing stuff for others.
People notice someone's deeds. Others judge us, based on what we do from day to day, and if every act a person engages in is selfish, they'll get no help from anyone.
I'm looking to explore my own relationship with money. My current life is an ongoing experiment to see what it takes to survive, what it really takes, what the most basic actions are for someone to survive in this world.
I hate begging, who doesn't? but what I'm realizing is that my begging is no different than any business person with something to sell. I've got something I'm investing my time into, all of my time. I'm working hard at this and THAT is exactly what I have to remind myself each day.
Someone who wants something for nothing, now that's one thing. I do believe I'm bringing something to people and that's why you should donate to my efforts right here on this page.
No comments:
Post a Comment