Journalings Entry

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Tue. Oct. 19

1:28am

So Sick of Art art

Talk of the 'material world' today as I ponder just how serious I am about rejecting it. I think what I'd like is for the stuff i make to be secondary. I can draw very well and my painting style is good. But what I'm becoming know for is the verb: fishbowling.

YA KNOW.. I think maybe I feel I just don't have anything important to say in painting. I want to paint though. It's therapeutic, and besides, once in a while it does actually sell and money is good because I eat food that is prepared and brought to me.

I only like to do things if they're outstanding but I realize, nothing I make is outstanding in comparison to the sistine chapel or a Leonardo painting. I'll be honest, it's a matter of time investment and I don't see anything I make right now being bought for very much money. Nothing is being bought for very much money. So I might as well make something quick & easy. I can save the 'highly detailed pony tricks for later once I'm in demand.

I'm looking at this ArtistADay.com and they feature all these artists, all great, of course, top of the line–picture makers, object makers–and I can't help but feeling bored. Just fucking bored. More pictures? More objects? Is this all that art is? Showing off stuff that we make? What century is this?

And in talking on Facebook, BORED! You people are boring the fuck out of me. The talk of what art is and what artists do, it's the same old regurgitated crap and misinformation, simpleton ideas about peace and love and inspiration and I wonder if anyone really has any idea how fucking boring their ideas are about art. DO YOU?

ArtistFishbowl should get the narrowing down treatment, the streamlining programmatic downsizing that all art goes through. AFB needs to be homogenized as to become a recognizable commodity on the market. We need to make it into this easy to recognize art form so everyone can wrap their minds around its smallness because an artist needs to stand for something–ONE thing and that's all that the world wants from an artist: one thing. ArtistFishbowl.